heavenly father ,
i wanna thank you once again .
i know my life worth nothing w/o you
thanks for the fav verse .
joshua 1 : 9
have i not commanded you,
be strong and courageous
do not be terrified
do not be discouraged
for the Lord your God will be with you whether you go .
thanks ya , esther !
i love youuuuuu .
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Friday, June 24, 2005
i got nothing to do now . so i decided to type a entry here .
just look back at my previous post . i remember one of them is about BGR stuff .
i feel so bad about it . i always thought that i'll never get into this kinda 'bad' relationship frm the start when i choose to be with the one and only one above . it's a personal conviction who and what you wanna choose in the end . the risk i took to get into a relationship really makes my walk with God turn adverse . at that point of tyme , i thought it's okay . i'll still love God as much as i love him frm the start . but i was wrong . really wrong ! i dont even wanna go church , i thought that i dont need God at point of tyme . i tried to conceal everything . i know it's not right yet i do it . hahahs . i think i was visually and hearing impaired by that stoopid satan . *bashing meself*
that's what i wrote last tyme :
One question I just asked myself today as I was thinking about it is "why do people want to get attached ?" I tried answering but I can't give a reason. I mean, if I were to say..
"so that there is someone there, so that I feel more secure?"
Shldnt my sense of security come from me being self-confident and knowing that God is always with me?
"I just wanna see how it is like."
Oh gosh, that is really selfish! cant you just observe and learn from real life examples around you? must you go in and get hurt and hurt others?
"It seems like the right age to be attached."
Really? or is it a herd mentality at work?
I believe we are all made for relationships. We all want to be able to relate. Yet, it's not about getting into wrong relationships that do not please God. -end-
HAHAHS . *laughing at my own enry*
i can tell people all this , yet i did it myself . all this are just waive for convicting myself not to get in one .
i know it's sweet . having someone whom you can share your life, your thoughts, your joy and sadness with .
hais . at tyme i just worn out of myself . why am i always envy those loving couple ? why this . why that .
but i know God will never get worn out of me . A BIG THANK YOU TO HIM . i choose to resumes this walk with Him . what about people who are far away frm God becos of this tempo affectionate love ? are you guys scouring for an answer ? Jesus is the answer . what are you waiting for ? unreservedly give up on bgr . i know it's not easy . i had experenice that . i understand your feeling . if you dont stop now . the love for that guy/girl will escalate . i bet you wont even wanna give up at point of tyme . i know it's not very good to post it on my blog . it might spoil my own creditability .but just wanna share to people that bgr is not everything .
i dont wanna be a sprinter in my walk with God . i wanna be a long distance runner for Him .
my fingers is tired now . gotta angie and gang later . tata ~
just look back at my previous post . i remember one of them is about BGR stuff .
i feel so bad about it . i always thought that i'll never get into this kinda 'bad' relationship frm the start when i choose to be with the one and only one above . it's a personal conviction who and what you wanna choose in the end . the risk i took to get into a relationship really makes my walk with God turn adverse . at that point of tyme , i thought it's okay . i'll still love God as much as i love him frm the start . but i was wrong . really wrong ! i dont even wanna go church , i thought that i dont need God at point of tyme . i tried to conceal everything . i know it's not right yet i do it . hahahs . i think i was visually and hearing impaired by that stoopid satan . *bashing meself*
that's what i wrote last tyme :
One question I just asked myself today as I was thinking about it is "why do people want to get attached ?" I tried answering but I can't give a reason. I mean, if I were to say..
"so that there is someone there, so that I feel more secure?"
Shldnt my sense of security come from me being self-confident and knowing that God is always with me?
"I just wanna see how it is like."
Oh gosh, that is really selfish! cant you just observe and learn from real life examples around you? must you go in and get hurt and hurt others?
"It seems like the right age to be attached."
Really? or is it a herd mentality at work?
I believe we are all made for relationships. We all want to be able to relate. Yet, it's not about getting into wrong relationships that do not please God. -end-
HAHAHS . *laughing at my own enry*
i can tell people all this , yet i did it myself . all this are just waive for convicting myself not to get in one .
i know it's sweet . having someone whom you can share your life, your thoughts, your joy and sadness with .
hais . at tyme i just worn out of myself . why am i always envy those loving couple ? why this . why that .
but i know God will never get worn out of me . A BIG THANK YOU TO HIM . i choose to resumes this walk with Him . what about people who are far away frm God becos of this tempo affectionate love ? are you guys scouring for an answer ? Jesus is the answer . what are you waiting for ? unreservedly give up on bgr . i know it's not easy . i had experenice that . i understand your feeling . if you dont stop now . the love for that guy/girl will escalate . i bet you wont even wanna give up at point of tyme . i know it's not very good to post it on my blog . it might spoil my own creditability .but just wanna share to people that bgr is not everything .
i dont wanna be a sprinter in my walk with God . i wanna be a long distance runner for Him .
my fingers is tired now . gotta angie and gang later . tata ~
Thursday, June 23, 2005
hahhs . im back to BLOG .
something happened . im crestfallen .
i dont know what to say .
or what you want me to say .
sorry . but i cant post it here .
why me ? why me ? why me ?
but hey , Father , your ways i may never always understand , but my future is in your hands . and i will continue to run after you . not turning back . forever praying and trusting in your word . you are the light unto my path . lead me you , oh GOD .
something happened . im crestfallen .
i dont know what to say .
or what you want me to say .
sorry . but i cant post it here .
why me ? why me ? why me ?
but hey , Father , your ways i may never always understand , but my future is in your hands . and i will continue to run after you . not turning back . forever praying and trusting in your word . you are the light unto my path . lead me you , oh GOD .